Biorythyms!

I came across an article on biorythyms and how to calculate it by entering your birthdate and the present date. It calculates your emotional, physical and intellectual well-being for the moment. Well mine is on it's way up on all 3 levels. It is phenomenal, considering the highs and lows I am experiencing at present. I would've thought that my emotions are running low, due to my inner-self saying good-bye to all the people I've grown to love here in Kinshasa over the past 2 years. Last week, my driver told me he couldn't sleep and was up all night, as he kept on thinking about Torden, and how much he is going to miss him. When he mentioned this, I couldn't speak for about 5 minutes, as I had to hold back lots of tears. The hardest part is going to be saying goodbye to the people that have lived with us as a family everyday. This was very hard for me in the beginning to actually allow them into my space. To me, it was an invasion of my privacy, I always felt that they would resent me for having "more things" in my life, but I was wrong. They entered our living space with no intention of harm, greed or hate, they lived with around us but not with us. Although they worked for us, they worked with us. We had our ups and downs, but we learnt to love these people. We were invited to an Easter Dinner at my friend's house tonight, and I was asked why am I so sad to leave Kinshasa, I should be celebrating, as it is the one of the worst places to live! She said the only reason should be because I am leaving my friends behind. I disagree, and said that I had felt the same way when I first arrived here, but you learn to close your eyes to the worst things, and only look for the good all around. You find the positivity amongst it all, you manage to look for good all around. I believe this made it a turn around for me, I turned the bad into good. All I know is that, I started journalling my thoughts, and wrote down all the good points about this place, and it far outweighed the bad points. I just kept on telling myself that this was temporary, which also helped, not that I wished my time away. Just because, I knew I had such a short time to find all the things I needed to do or that the universe required me to do here. And as a warning to you all, if you want to do so many things with your life in the next few years, plan it all and list it in order of preference as you may run out of time just like I have......